
Ok- I’m putting this on tumblr so it’s actually written out, and other people are able to see it:
From today, I REFUSE to let this stuff keep taking over my life. From THIS SECOND, I will get back on the road to recovery. I know that it won’t be easy- but finally, after 3 months of relapse, I’m ready to start the hike again.
Wish me luck :)
Wishing you all the luck in the world lovely, this is wonderful to read. ♥
I want to conquer this.
More than anything in my life right now. I admitted to my mom I lied to the nutritionist. I’m going to fix that. And I’m going to fix this. I’m going to continue to see my nutritionist and I’m going to start seeing a therapist in treatment next week.
It’s not going to happen overnight. I might slip up. I might relapse. I might not! But I’m going to fix this. Because I owe it to myself to be happy.
I don’t know how long it’ll take, and I don’t know how much weight I’ll gain back, but I’m fixing this shit because I’m tired of crying and I’m tired of being unhappy and I’m tired of hating myself.
So, recovery? You are my bitch.
Things like this are always so beautiful/inspiring to read. You go girl!
Any time poppet, please do remember that you’re worth so much more than this. Lots of love and wishing you the best of luck! xo
Firstly, don’t apologise lovely, that is absolutely the last thing you should be doing. One of the primary problems when it comes to people wanting to seek help for their disorder/s is that they don’t think they’re ‘ill enough’ or are ‘too fat’, when this is absolutely not the case at all, I promise you. You must understand that the sooner you get help, the sooner you will be able to start the journey to a recovered life. Allowing yourself to spiral further downwards and become more unwell with your disorder before seeking help will only make it harder for you to recover sweetheart, and nobody wants that.
Unfortunately I knew a girl personally who was put on a 6 month waiting list to get help for her disorder on the NHS. Of course, this was incredibly disheartening for her, and she believed that by losing more weight they would take her more seriously and offer her help more quickly. She ended up becoming so unwell she had to go into inpatient care immediately, which ultimately made her road to recovery much, much longer than it had to be.
Please, don’t submit to the voices that tell you that people won’t take you seriously or that you are ‘too fat’. When I went to group therapy, the one thing that everyone said was that they felt ‘too fat’ to be there or deserving of help. This is the disorder speaking, and it isn’t true. People will take you seriously, they will want to help and they do want you to get better.
Your weight does not define how much torment you are experiencing from your disorder lovely, please try to remember this. No matter what weight you are, you deserve help, you deserve recovery, and you deserve to be happy. Please stay safe sweetheart, and please seek help.
I can no longer be with you. You are a selfish bitch who thinks only about yourself. You are shallow and out of control. You’re killing me inside and I can’t stand your instability and the mental anguish you cause me.
Please fuck off.
I’m filing for separation, oh and I’m taking my sanity with me.
- Me
Of course sweetheart, I will make a note to do that today for you. Stay safe and keep your head up lovely.
(via mentally-ill-strong-will)
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Thanks so much for the advice anon, I’m sure sufferers from the U.S. will really appreciate this!